letter 34: it'll find you when you least expect it

“We must assume our existence as broadly as we in any way can; everything, even the unheard-of, must be possible in it. That is at bottom the only courage that is demanded of us: to have courage for the most strange, the most singular and the most inexplicable that we may encounter.” -Rainer Rilke

hi beautiful human,

how are ya?

I had to skip a few weeks of putting out this newsletter because life has been surprising me with unexpected blessings.

it’s actually really interesting how this is all playing out because ~2 weeks ago I began putting out daily-ish short vlog style videos on instagram and tiktok to capture my current 90-day creative sprint. my personal goal is to become as intentional as possible with my time and utilize the next 3 months to initiate and complete specific creative goals that have been swirling around in my mind. on the other side of feeling accomplished, committed, and disciplined with these endeavors it’ll be a lot easier to fully lean into play as the year winds down and I prepare myself to welcome the new year.

almost immediately after I began sharing these videos and committing to focusing on specific goals, opportunities came my way that forced me to shift my attention to endeavors that weren’t necessarily what I told myself i’d be doing right now.

the timing of this all has got me thinking a lot about the trifecta that is—manifestation, surrendering, and divine timing.

blessings have appeared in my life that i’ve been praying about for a long time, but they didn’t appear until I completely shifted my energy away from how badly I wanted them, and instead immersed myself in gratitude for what was available to me in the present moment. spiritual teachers constantly allude to how much faith needs to go into trusting that the universe is listening to your heart’s truest desire even if you can’t see it unfolding yet (which was previously hard for me to fully embody). a mindset like this goes against the hustle and grind culture that western society loves to impose on us, so it just never felt right.

but…things have changed.

the past year of my existence has served as an intimate masterclass all about overhauling my limiting beliefs and exposing the ways of being that will block my blessings if left unchecked. although i’m still making my way out of the toughest season life has thrown my way, the past few weeks alone have served as proof that things are working out better than I could’ve ever imagined. divine timing is doing its thing and all that was required of me was to speak to my angels and trust that they would have my back.

phew! the lesson of a lifetime! 🥹

with love always,

cat, a gal tryin’ her best

this is what i’m currently reading! i’m only a few pages into the first chapter, but have already added 5 new words to my vocabulary. the nerdy gal in me is very happy!

1. how great sadness transform us and bring us closer to ourselves

2. making the best out of your ‘bed rot’ day

3. striving to be ambitious in our friendships

4. how to make worrying actually productive (lol)

5. why a capacity for “fertile solitude” is essential for self-esteem and healthy relationships

6. a list of 21 diy adaptogen drink recipes you can try out when you’re chillin’ at home

7. american’s aren’t consuming enough fiber…yikes

8. why we talk to ourselves

9. a list of 20 top-selling and transformative mental health books

10. curing and preventing iphone thumb

11. apparently these are the 11 best dating apps of 2023 (may the force be with you if you decide to actually give em’ a try)